11-18-2025, 06:41 PM
Maybe you conjured up a bizarre belief that managed to spook your family enough to force professional help upon you. Maybe the fact that you were in the office of a psychiatrist drilled in how serious it all could be. With all of these factors weighing down, there is no way you could ever laugh as you opened up about these crazy thoughts of yours, right? Think again. It would be more bizarre if you managed to hold in the laughter. Why?
There is nothing about your newly formed delusion that erases a lifetime of knowing how stupid your belief sounds when spoken allowed. You will probably chuckle the first time you verbalize hearing voices for the same reasons. Prior to this moment, hearing voices was something out of psych thrillers. They aren't part of who you are. Not in this stage of your life. You've had no time to grow accustomed. It can take a good portion of a decade for your otherwise stable self to rattle off psychobabble as though it were small talk.
It's a form of double bookkeeping. You know it sounds funny and yet you know you believe every bit of it. All schizos have gone through the process of gradually being able to verbalize psychosis with a straight face. The process can be beyond frustrating. Confusing at best. You could guess the reason for why this is.
You can feel that your family or perhaps even a poorly trained professional will suspect malingering. Truly sad. Beyond sad. Disbelieved due to not having the proper poker face.
What's more sad? You learn your poker face as your condition worsens due to being under treated. This is the true prodromal phase.
There is nothing about your newly formed delusion that erases a lifetime of knowing how stupid your belief sounds when spoken allowed. You will probably chuckle the first time you verbalize hearing voices for the same reasons. Prior to this moment, hearing voices was something out of psych thrillers. They aren't part of who you are. Not in this stage of your life. You've had no time to grow accustomed. It can take a good portion of a decade for your otherwise stable self to rattle off psychobabble as though it were small talk.
It's a form of double bookkeeping. You know it sounds funny and yet you know you believe every bit of it. All schizos have gone through the process of gradually being able to verbalize psychosis with a straight face. The process can be beyond frustrating. Confusing at best. You could guess the reason for why this is.
You can feel that your family or perhaps even a poorly trained professional will suspect malingering. Truly sad. Beyond sad. Disbelieved due to not having the proper poker face.
What's more sad? You learn your poker face as your condition worsens due to being under treated. This is the true prodromal phase.