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How? [TW]

In a certain arguably-psychotic flavor of mindset, there becomes a morbidly fascinating quality to my own mortality. It's a deep sense of enamor, a pull to the dark side of the world and my role within it. I want to feel the mortality by cutting, to have the beast bite into me and show me what it's really got. And that in turn makes me feel alive, and that my life is in my own hands. In those moments, and for as long as the pain lasts, I feel have absorbed the power of mortality itself.

Would you not call this manner of thinking psychotic?]]>
How? [TW]

In a certain arguably-psychotic flavor of mindset, there becomes a morbidly fascinating quality to my own mortality. It's a deep sense of enamor, a pull to the dark side of the world and my role within it. I want to feel the mortality by cutting, to have the beast bite into me and show me what it's really got. And that in turn makes me feel alive, and that my life is in my own hands. In those moments, and for as long as the pain lasts, I feel have absorbed the power of mortality itself.

Would you not call this manner of thinking psychotic?]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-13.html Sat, 02 Aug 2025 01:51:49 +0000 ArmandCNP]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-13.html What symptoms did you experience during the onset of your schizophrenia? I primarily dissociated.]]> What symptoms did you experience during the onset of your schizophrenia? I primarily dissociated.]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-12.html Thu, 31 Jul 2025 20:46:29 +0000 ArmandCNP]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-12.html
Who else has had psychotic nightmares?]]>
Who else has had psychotic nightmares?]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-9.html Mon, 30 Jun 2025 23:18:39 +0000 itzalandevore]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-9.html https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-6.html Fri, 06 Jun 2025 01:27:21 +0000 Zach the Schizophreniac]]> https://forums.crazynicepeople.org/thread-6.html Mine are stress and the dark. I'm so sensitive to the dark I get assaulted my all manor of symptoms as soon as I'm in complete darkness, it's been years since I've slept in the dark... My trigger for stress isn't so sensitive, but now I have a fear of stress is inhibits my daily life as a result.

Bonus question: If your triggers are the same as mine (or even if they aren't I'm not your boss), how do your symptoms manifest in those situations?
For me, most commonly in darkness I get all sorts of hallucinations, feelings of being watched, delusions involving there being 'something' in the dark, a sense of impending doom and paranoia, plus if I think of something unpleasant too hard, it will manifest. In terms of stress, it triggers ALL of my symptoms with them being more severe the more stressed I am, though they will usually not occur if I'm around other people. As you can imagine, this snowballs fast, I'll be stressed, then, to start, I'll get stressed about being stressed (because I know it usually ends in psychosis), then my symptoms will stress me further, eventually the symptoms get so bad that I can't sleep, either due to always being in fear, or the knowledge that if I go to sleep too stressed I WILL have sleep paralysis, if I haven't gone into full blown acute psychosis by the time I get to insomnia, then the insomnia will cause it.]]> Mine are stress and the dark. I'm so sensitive to the dark I get assaulted my all manor of symptoms as soon as I'm in complete darkness, it's been years since I've slept in the dark... My trigger for stress isn't so sensitive, but now I have a fear of stress is inhibits my daily life as a result.

Bonus question: If your triggers are the same as mine (or even if they aren't I'm not your boss), how do your symptoms manifest in those situations?
For me, most commonly in darkness I get all sorts of hallucinations, feelings of being watched, delusions involving there being 'something' in the dark, a sense of impending doom and paranoia, plus if I think of something unpleasant too hard, it will manifest. In terms of stress, it triggers ALL of my symptoms with them being more severe the more stressed I am, though they will usually not occur if I'm around other people. As you can imagine, this snowballs fast, I'll be stressed, then, to start, I'll get stressed about being stressed (because I know it usually ends in psychosis), then my symptoms will stress me further, eventually the symptoms get so bad that I can't sleep, either due to always being in fear, or the knowledge that if I go to sleep too stressed I WILL have sleep paralysis, if I haven't gone into full blown acute psychosis by the time I get to insomnia, then the insomnia will cause it.]]>